alton sterling, this is for you

how many more lives? how many more lives must these radical racists take before they are satisfied? they're no different from terrorists. they create destruction and take lives. they are terrorists. and we must take the same actions with them as we do with people who strike terror. 

i like to believe i speak as a third party. i am not black. i am not white. but maybe i am biased. maybe not by the color of my skin but the way i see people. i see us to be the same; you, me, alton sterling, trayvon martin, etc. what makes us different from these black men who were shot and murdered in cold blood? we don't share the same skin color? is that justification to take a father, a brother, a son? 

i will not stand idly by as i watch innocent men and women not live to see another day because of their skin color. i will not stand idly by as i watch another HUMAN'S life taken away. i will not stand idly by as another child cries for their parent who they lost at the hands of racism. I WILL NOT STAND IDLY BY AND WATCH ANOTHER MAN UNABLE TO SEE TOMORROW BECAUSE OF THE COLOR OF HIS SKIN. 

i will not. 

neither should you. 

the change begins with us and it begins now. 

bring justice to all the men and women killed at the hands of racism. do this for them. speak up for them. this is for them. 

and ask yourself this 

why is it that we only speak up for the wrongs of racism when a life is taken? 

in response to recent events

there is so much evil in the world, it's sickening. every person is born solely good with an innocence that hasn't yet been tainted. it's beautiful and it explains my love for children, so alive and uncaring. but bad things happen to good people. terrorists, for instance, were born good. they were once babies. they were once pure. however, something has caused these select individuals to believe taking lives is okay. that it's right. that it's justified. it's not. taking a life due to your radical beliefs will not bring among the change you wish to see. it will not bring people to listen to you. it will cause fear and chaos, something they cease to understand. they're not doing the world justice which they seem to believe, they're creating a path of destruction. they're destroying the good in others and that is something i choose not to stand for. we must unite, not as muslims or christians or hindus, etc. we must unite as human beings. we must not be separated by the belief that our religions are superior to another. we must strive together to bring amongst change. we are the children of mother earth and we are destroying her creation or what we know as "humanity." stop the violence and learn to love. there is still humanity left in those we see as incapable of emotion, we need to show those select individuals that they won't break the barrier of love we've wrapped around our souls. we are a new generation. we are not our parents or our grandparents. let the change begin with us, for we are the future. 

is this justice?

brock turner. 

as quickly as the name was heard it was just as quickly forgotten. 

but it will never be forgotten for the woman whose virtue he stole. the life he stole from her. the future he stole from her. 

sex, which is supposed to be a beautiful, magical thing has been tainted with evil. 

an evil he caused. 

friends and family have come forward talking about what a great boy he was and discussing his athletic achievements as if that makes up for what he's done. 

isn't funny how not once do we hear about the woman or what a great girl she was before this incident destroyed her. 

is this justice? 

no one talked about what a struggle she's going through trying to get up each morning or the way she scrubs her skin so hard, leaving angry red rashes everywhere trying so desperately to forget the wrong she faced. 

is this justice? 

the victim was forgotten. 

is this justice? 

a man who forced himself upon a woman who wasn't willing nor was she conscious was let off easy with six months but those six months will never be enough for her to forget what was done to her. 

is this justice?

his name will remain forever ingrained in our minds. 

a pathetic excuse of a man. a stain amongst humanity. a rapist. 

so to all his friends and family claiming what a great boy he was; tell me why he was found with his pants to his ankles behind a dumpster raping an unconscious, unwilling woman when clearly he's a golden boy who could have had consensual sex with a willing woman?

THIS isn't justice. 

liar

"how are you?"

i'm suffocating. 

"i'm good."

"are you okay?"

okay? what is okay? nothing is okay especially not me. i'm laughing hysterically as tears roll down my cheeks in pure distress. can't you see them? can't you?

"i'm fine."

"how's life been treating you?"

my world is slowly crumbling down around me and i'm trying to pick up the pieces and glue them back together. everything is falling apart and i no longer know how to fix it. please. help me. 

"good, thank you."

lie. lie. lie. 

you're lying. 

pathetic. 

perfect

perfect. 

feel this. 

no, not that. 

smile for the camera. 

no, not like that. 

wear this. 

no, not that one. 

perfect. perfect. perfect. 

you're supposed to be perfect. 

you are a porcelain doll on a shelf designed by perfectionists, bought by people who wish to reconstruct you to be as they desire. 

you are supposed to be perfect,

WHY AREN'T YOU PERFECT?

why do you cry? 

dolls don't cry. 

the painted red lips upon your face should be placed in a pretty smile. 

and when there's a problem we can take you to the store and fix you. 

it's okay darling, we're going to fix you. 

and when we come back we'll take you away with the smile now in tact upon your face. 

because we're happy.

perfect.